WEEK TWO. 1/18 - 1/24 hearing God's voice

playin' dutch blitz with Matt, Morgan, and Monika.

I've been here for two weeks. woot woot.

Our speaker this week was David Gava.   He started the first day with a normal lecture on what steps should be taken to hear God's voice, and then when class was about to end he asked if there was a Melissa in the room... at first I thought "who?" but Missy was sitting next to me.  David spoke over her, words from God, and it was really cool to see blessings being poured over her like that.  I KNEW he was going to speak over Autumn too.  It was so funny, we all had a feeling he would (:  Right when David 

was about to dismiss us to lunch he asked if there was an Autumn in the room.  He knew she was from Oklahoma.  He told her she would do great things through God. It was really cool and I'm so happy for Autumn!!!

Tuesday, Monika caught me a moth.  If ya'll didn't know moths are my favorite bug.  Just because I feel like most people look over them, and how beautiful they can be.  People notice the butterflies, but not the moths.  But God notices the moths, and he put a lot of work into making them the way they are <3  Our custodian, Matt, let us use his Mason jar, so I kept it in there for the day and let it go at night.



the moth we caught in (:

Wednesday. We had workout Wednesday that day.  Yeah so on Wednesdays we workout as a school, and it was so hardcore that day.  We did different 2 minute exercises at 8 different stations... by the end everyone was sweating like crazy, breathing real hard. AND THEY TOLD US WE HAD TO WORKOUT TO AN AB VIDEO... it was a funny 80s video but I honestly was so out of breath, I didn't even try haha (:

A couple sit ups into the video, it stopped working. It switched to an emergency broadcast screen... and it changed to a new video.  Our OUTREACH LOCATIONS!  I immediately starting crying happy tears as the names of the countries were displayed on the screen.  Micronesia, Philippines, New Zealand, Central Asia, Middle East...  They told us we had TEN minutes to ask the Lord where we should go, and hear his answers. 

so tired from the workout

I walked to a nice shady patch of grass, laid down and looked up at the sky and I said "Speak Lord, for your servant is listening."  I kept hearing Micronesia/Marshall Islands, so I put it down and immediately felt peace about the location.  I asked Him to speak again, and I heard New Zealand... my last choice for an outreach location... I thought, "maybe I should put down the Middle East, that's what Autumn's putting."  But I knew He had said New Zealand so I put it down anyway.  I asked Him once more, for my third location, and I heard one of the Middle East locations, put it down, without much thought. 




Autumn and I after a beach day (:

All throughout that week, I was struggling with the fact that I put down New Zealand.  I really didn't want to go there.  I felt like I heard God say "Don't worry.  I'll send you to the Marshall Islands."  But how could I be sure it was His Voice?!?!  And getting the Islands became a big deal for me, because if I didn't, does that mean I can't hear His voice at all?  Eh, I dunno, maybe it sounds silly but it was a big deal to me (:

The rest of the week was pretty stressful just because many people didn't feel at PEACE with the outreach locations they put down.  I struggled a lot with the bestie Autumn <3  Sometimes things just don't work out the right way, and I feel like we had the wrong focus on the outreach locations, but we came to realize after lots of praying and talking, that WHEREVER God sends us, it will be GOOD.  There are broken people everywhere, and I'm growing a heart for all of them.

Hearing the voice of God is different for everyone.  For me personally, I hear him in my thoughts, through creation, through symbolism, and through other people.  I know Autumn can often hear what He has to say through music lyrics, super cool.  I love how He is different for everyone; it makes the relationship so personal.  Yeah, it's pretty chill (: <3

Okay one last thing, Friday night we had a BURN.  From 8pm to 12am we were in the prayer room, worshiping, reading the Bible, using the time as we felt we needed to.  It's called a burn because our hearts are on fire, if you didn't catch that ;)



Autumn, Jana, Erika, Matt, Me,
 Graham, and Monika at panda express

I went through the whole four hours just feeling good, but close to the end I saw Sena, an Engage staff, go up to Autumn and pray for her.  And I just thought, I want God to use me as he uses her.  I want a strong relationship with Him... my thoughts reflected over our relationship and I asked him "may there never again be a dry season in my life."  May I always be with you, the FULLNESS of you.  I'm tired of this shallow relationship based on hype.  Then, Sena came up to ME, and told me God wants that.  He's reaching out His hand, and wants me to grab hold of EVERYTHING he has to offer, the fullness of Him.

I'm never letting go.

That Sunday, it rained for the first time.  I was sitting under a large tree, with some other people.  We were having a little jam session, super natural and raw.  As it rained we sang "come down, down, down, down."  The rain came down, and the fullness of Jesus came down on me as well. <3

Good stuff.

His word for me this week was peace.  When I put down Marshall Islands, I felt at peace.  When I accepted the fullness of him, I felt at peace.  Thanks for giving me peace<3

To everyone who actually reads this, thanks.  Shoot me a message, comment, or something because I'd love to hear from you all!  And just to let you all know my due date for $2,500 towards the outreach location is due on this Friday, the 6th.  If it's in your heart to support me, please do because I need the funds!

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"For I am the Lord your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you,
 Do not fear; I will help you." Isaiah 41:13

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